I miss everything. I miss seeing Lize all the time and getting high in Weston with her. I miss being so carefree and not having anything to worry about. I miss not feeling like this about someone. I can't stop thinking about you and you just don't understand, you just make me think about you even more because of the little perfect things you do. I wish no one knew about the whole bi-sexual thing because people won't stop taking the piss. I didn't even want people to know about it? Oh fucking hell.

well today I feel like crap. You say you're my best friend but you only come to me when you need something, oh yay that's fun.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
YOU ALWAYS GO ON AND ON AND ON ABOUT HOW EVERYONE'S SO SELFISH, BUT YOU ARE THE MOST FUCKING SELFISH PERSON I HAVE EVER MET.

oh fuck this, I don't trust anyone. I want to run away, with someone who I can't mention here. I want to just run away with them and see what they are like when they are on their own and not with all of their shit friends. I want to run away and go to Cornwall and be on the beach, maybe on my own or maybe with them. I want to smoke and sing and dance and laugh with them. This is such a fucking gay post but I don't care, I mean it.

fucking. allow.

I swear to god, everything has turned to shit right in front of me this week, and no one fucking cares. If I bring up my problems people call me selfish and then go on about how my problems have nothing compared to them. I just seriously fucking wish someone cared, if anyone finds this blog I will cry so hard. I want everything to get back to normal. With my dad, my mum, my grandpa, him, her, everyone. Everything is shit. shit. shit. shit.